finding the inspiration

It isn’t always easy to find meaningful topics to blog about. Not to mention the fact that life gets in the way, and frequently, you don’t get the opportunity to just take a moment and appreciate all the amazing things you got going on. It’s been about 8 months since my last entry and I feel like so many spectacular things have happened to me.

At the airport with Justin

At the airport with Justin

I’ll start with the month of December. For me, this was an exciting month. For obvious reasons it meant that Christmas was fast approaching, but more importantly, my boyfriend, Justin, would be coming home from Ireland for the holidays. At this point, we had been apart for 4 months, so it was really nice to spend some quality time with each other and our families.

Another special moment, was when my brother and sister-in-law told the family at Christmas that they are expecting a baby in summer 2015. After an extremely tough 6 months, with the loss of my niece, Isla (A Journey of Grief), it was a bittersweet moment of joy to find out that we would be welcoming another little one into this world. With it now being just over a year, my family has had time to heal and we couldn’t be happier for them. I’m so looking forward to meeting my little nephew at the end of the month!

This brings me to the month of March. My first trip on a plane by myself. First stop, Ireland.

Justin picked me up at the airport and I spent a few days with him in Limerick. While Justin had classes, I was able to explore the downtown city centre. There’s something so exhilarating about being in a place, by yourself, navigating through unknown territory. The city lies on the River Shannon and has a vast variety of old architecture, lush pastures, unique shops and local pubs. Definitely worth traveling to.

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After seeing Justin’s home away from home, we were on our way to our next travel destination. Paris! For anyone who doesn’t knows me, I have been dying to go to Paris for years. So when Justin and I decided to book the trip and go, I was ecstatic. We rented a quaint little apartment through Airbnb, which was located in the 3rd arrondissement. Once we arrived, it was beginning to get dark, so as soon as we got settled in, we decided to head over to the Champ de Mars. I will never forget the feeling I had when I got off the metro and finally, after months of anticipation, walked the streets of Paris. My face hurt from smiling so much. We turned the corner, and there she was. The most magnificent, breath-taking piece of architecture I have ever seen. The Eiffel Tower.

During our stay, it was impossible to see everything Paris has to offer. But, we were able to see the iconic architecture, taste the delicious food, explore the chic boutiques, and experience Parisian culture. Here are some of my favourite pictures from the trip.

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Eiffel Tower (Day and Night)

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Garden Shop (near Notre Dame) and Pont des Arts (love lock bridge)

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Sacré-Cœur and Moulin Rouge (Montmarte)

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Arc de Triomphe and Candles at Notre Dame Cathedral

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Musée d’Orsay and The Catacombs of Paris

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Palace of Versaille (Inside) and Jardin du Luxembourg

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Notre Dame Cathedral and Palace of Versailles

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The Louvre and Our love lock on Pont des Art

After our time in Paris, we flew back to the Emerald Isle and landed ourselves in Dublin! I had traveled to Dublin once before as a child, but let me tell you, it is much better as an adult. During the day we walked around the city and in the evening we enjoyed a few pints at The Temple Bar. Again, here are a few photos I took along the way.

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St. Stephen’s Green and Flowers at Dublin Castle

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Entrance way to the garden at Dublin Castle

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Christ Church Cathedral and The Temple Bar

On to the next adventure…

a journey of grief

I wish I could sit here and say that it was a grey and miserable day. But, it wasn’t. It was sunny and beautiful outside. The beginning of what I thought would be the best summer of my life. Instead, it was the day that would change me, forever.

I decided it was the perfect morning to go for a run along the beach. My boyfriend and I were up at his cottage, three hours from home. Out we went, iPhone’s in hand, music playing softly through our earphones. We were about halfway through our 5 kilometer run. As I quickly changed to the next song, I realized that my music was being interrupted by an unfamiliar jingle that was my ringer. I looked down to see that my Mum was trying to reach me. I answered the phone call, a little out of breath, explaining to my Mum that we were just out for a run. She told me the news.

My sister, who was 34 weeks pregnant, had an episode during the night and was rushed to hospital in the morning. There was no fetal heartbeat. As my Mum told me the news, it was as if everyone surrounding me was moving in super speed and I was stuck, in this slow motion nightmare that was consuming me. I talked to my sister briefly on the phone. As she sobbed, I sobbed. Both of us were completely and utterly heartbroken. We later found out that my sister was having a baby girl. Isla Alexandra Claire. My first and only niece.

Nearly 3 months since the loss of Isla, my family and I still grieve. It comes in waves. Some days, I feel better than others. But then it hits me. I won’t get to be the kind of aunt that I was so looking forward to being. Many keep telling me that I’m still an aunt. But it just doesn’t feel the same.

She’s gone.

I never saw the colour of her eyes. I never saw her smile or heard her laugh.

My emotions vary. I feel numb, frustrated, angry, sad, and empty. I try to stay strong, because I know I need to be strong for my family, especially my sister. But some days, I’m tired of pretending to be brave. I’m tired of seeing all the great things going on in other people’s lives around me. Because, for me…My heart now has an Isla-shaped hole that will never be filled. A missing puzzle piece.

So as I mourn for her, I can only hope that Isla is in a safer place, looking over me and my family.

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Isla Alexandra Claire – June 1, 2014

gossip girl

It’s been quite a while since I’ve explored some juicy celebrity tabloids as of lately. So, because I’m procrastinating hard, I figured it was the perfect time to check out the ever so fabulous PerezHilton.com. For old times’ sake! I totally forgot how ridiculous and hilarious some of the headlines are. Here are a few of my favourites that I’ll share with you beauties..

“Robert Pattinson & Kristen Stewart Visiting Splitsville Because Cheating Scandal Isn’t Behind Them?!”

I’m still baffled that they’re even together after all this time. Wasn’t it just for ratings?! LIKE, HI..the twilight “saga” is long over friends and so are you two. Kristen Stewart is actually the most awkward human being on this planet (And that’s coming from one hell of an awkward individual myself). I bet when he breaks up with her she’ll just stand there with that super uncomfortable blank expression on her face. Grow up.

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“Jennifer Lawrence Can’t Get Enough of Pizza, Buffalo Wings & Potatoes!!”

This is the number one reason why J.Law and I would be best friends in real life…we’re basically the same person! She eats pizza, I eat pizza. She likes wings, I like wings. If people didn’t fall in love with her when she tripped going up the stairs to accept her Oscar award, they HAVE TO love her now! So relatable, am I right girls?!

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“David Beckham is RETIRING From Soccer At The End Of The Season!”

You know what they say right? All good things must come to an end =( This hot dad is officially retiring from soccer (I don’t blame him, if I were that beautiful, I wouldn’t want soccer balls, limbs and cleats flying around my gorgeous face either, hubba hubba!). At least now you’ll have more time to model!

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“Kim Kardashian Talks Maternity Style! Says She’s Not Confident About Her Pregnant Bod!”

Get it together Kimmy! Pregnancy is one of the most beautiful and unbelievable miracles known to man kind! Maybe it’s time you stop wearing clothes that make you look like either a sofa and Shamu the whale. Quit being all self-conscious and embrace it. Usually when people get pregnant, they get fat. But regular pregnant women dress like normal human beings! Check yourself girl.

Mrs. Doubtfire for the win.

Mrs. Doubtfire for the win.

“Rihanna Wakes Up To A New Blonde Weave”

I’m so glad your hair colour matches your dumb idea to get back with Chris Brown (sorry to all my blonde friends). Oh, you woke up with a new weave? That’s not all you’ll be waking up with girl. Bruises on bruises. It makes zero sense to me why she would ever go back with him…but who am I to judge?! It’s not like you’re a role model to young girls or anything…awkwaaaard!

Nope...we all still remember.

Nope…we all still remember.

xo.