do not disturb, please

Have you ever had one of those days where the mere thought of interacting with other people is just too overwhelming? Some days, I just want to be left alone. I’m not saying I’m completely anti-social and hate talking to people. But there are definitely days where I would rather stay in my room, curl up in bed with a book and not deal with human beings. Today is one of those days for me.

The weather was absolutely miserable. Work was exhausting. And I was running on little sleep.

Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love my job. But every so often, I’ll supply in a classroom where the kids can be a handful. And you guessed it, today was that day. It just seemed as if every other second, I had a student coming up to me to tattle-tail on their friend for taking their eraser without asking. Really?! “Is that a big problem or a little problem? …Is that a problem you can solve by yourself?” I’d ask them. The answer to those questions are obviously, without a doubt, “no it’s not a big problem and yes, I can solve it on my own.” However, to a grade 2 – that’s the biggest problem they’ll face all week. Needless to say, it was a frustrating day trying to teach the class that tattling is the act of TRYING to get someone into trouble, when really the issue could be solved in under 5 seconds without all the drama. But I managed, and I have to admit that there were some really great moments with the kids too.

When I finally got home after my long day, I didn’t want to speak to a single soul. I immediately dragged myself up to my room.

Comfy clothes on. Check.
Left over halloween candy. Check.
Gilmore Girls on netflix. Check.
New book from Indigo. Check.

Now all I need is a do not disturb sign and I’m set. Don’t take offense to it. It doesn’t mean I don’t like you. It just means, I’m tired and moody and don’t feel like having an adult conversation. This is probably because I’ve been having conversations with 7 year olds all day and I’ve got nothing left in me to give. Over and out, friends.

a journey of grief

I wish I could sit here and say that it was a grey and miserable day. But, it wasn’t. It was sunny and beautiful outside. The beginning of what I thought would be the best summer of my life. Instead, it was the day that would change me, forever.

I decided it was the perfect morning to go for a run along the beach. My boyfriend and I were up at his cottage, three hours from home. Out we went, iPhone’s in hand, music playing softly through our earphones. We were about halfway through our 5 kilometer run. As I quickly changed to the next song, I realized that my music was being interrupted by an unfamiliar jingle that was my ringer. I looked down to see that my Mum was trying to reach me. I answered the phone call, a little out of breath, explaining to my Mum that we were just out for a run. She told me the news.

My sister, who was 34 weeks pregnant, had an episode during the night and was rushed to hospital in the morning. There was no fetal heartbeat. As my Mum told me the news, it was as if everyone surrounding me was moving in super speed and I was stuck, in this slow motion nightmare that was consuming me. I talked to my sister briefly on the phone. As she sobbed, I sobbed. Both of us were completely and utterly heartbroken. We later found out that my sister was having a baby girl. Isla Alexandra Claire. My first and only niece.

Nearly 3 months since the loss of Isla, my family and I still grieve. It comes in waves. Some days, I feel better than others. But then it hits me. I won’t get to be the kind of aunt that I was so looking forward to being. Many keep telling me that I’m still an aunt. But it just doesn’t feel the same.

She’s gone.

I never saw the colour of her eyes. I never saw her smile or heard her laugh.

My emotions vary. I feel numb, frustrated, angry, sad, and empty. I try to stay strong, because I know I need to be strong for my family, especially my sister. But some days, I’m tired of pretending to be brave. I’m tired of seeing all the great things going on in other people’s lives around me. Because, for me…My heart now has an Isla-shaped hole that will never be filled. A missing puzzle piece.

So as I mourn for her, I can only hope that Isla is in a safer place, looking over me and my family.

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Isla Alexandra Claire – June 1, 2014

pick me, choose me

Wouldn’t it be awesome if just for once you actually won a huge contest with an awesome prize? (The answer is yes).

I never used to enter contests or giveaways before, because quite frankly, I never think I’ll win. So why put myself out there only to be disappointed? Well, for some reason, lately, I’ve been really big into entering every contest that comes my way. From Blue Jays tickets to Jeopardy: Explore the World sweepstakes. You name it, I’m entered! Every contest I see, I find a glimmer of hope that I WILL BE the winner this time.

As of today, I haven’t been very successful. BUT…I just entered a new contest on Twitter to win playoff tickets for me and my boyfriend to go to the Toronto Raptors game 7 this Sunday. CHUMFM decided they were going to post the contest on their social media site to get fans excited about the possibility of attending one of the most exciting NBA events thus far. So naturally, I think it’s a great idea to send out a few tweets and retweets, in hopes that they’ll actually pick me to be the winner. 7am rolls around and I’m in there like a dirty shirt; favouriting tweets, creating my own tweets, adding pictures…

Well, it’s now almost 9am here in Canada and since posting mine, millions more people have attempted to win this contest. Basically what this means is that my tweets are lost somewhere in cyber space, and I just look like a total idiot trying to get a giveaway that is nearly impossible to win.

The moral of this story ladies and gentlemen, never give up on your (contest/giveaway) dreams. If you see a contest you want to win… look like an idiot, tweet like a mad person, sign up for every damn newsletter imaginable. Whatever it takes. ‘Cause maybe one of these days they’ll pick or choose you.

Or in this case, maybe they’ll choose me to win these Raptors Tickets, eh eh (I hope Drake sees this and has some pull).

it’s time to live your life

Starting a new year is a funny thing. We all vow to change ourselves for the better. Claim that this is the year we’re going to try something new and exciting – take risks. Maybe we try and be kinder to those around us. Or aspire to live a healthier, active lifestyle. I say it’s funny because every new year that approaches we become obsessed with it all (myself included). But do we ever really stick to our resolutions for those 12 months?

You may not want to hear this, but no, many of us don’t. We fall off the wagon and lose inspiration to stay on track. Discouraging, I know. Personally, I can count on all 10 fingers and toes how many times I haven’t stuck to a resolution. Reality of it is, life gets in the way. We become busy and tired and it’s much easier to lose that motivation rather than feed it.

So what’s different about 2014? Nothing really haha. However, I’ve decided to take on the challenge of sticking to my resolutions. Not too sure what I was thinking when I decided to make multiple resolutions, seeing as I usually can’t keep up with one. I guess I just felt like I needed a positive change and this was the first step to accomplishing that.

411bded171c5553f3c9e6d66d2b2690dI thought my blog would be the perfect opportunity to update you all on my progress so far, in hopes to pass on a little inspiration to those who are feeling defeated. And, to kill two birds with one stone, by sharing with you all, it helps me stay accountable!

Resolution #1: Try a new physical activity (long-term goal: to lose some weight and be healthier). I decided to try hot yoga. I had heard many great things about it so I said, why not? The week after new years eve, I dragged my boyfriend to a hot yoga class at Moksha Yoga in Milton and signed up for an intro month. Needless to say, I’ve been hooked ever since. Not only is it relaxing, but it strengthens and tones muscles I didn’t even know existed. If you’re looking for something new to try, I definitely recommend this. It may be a bit difficult at first, but it becomes easier over time (I promise).

Along with hot yoga, I’ve been using a (free) app called My Fitness Pal to record what I’m eating on a daily basis. It just helps me monitor the things I’m having and keeps me motivated when I add in cardiovascular/strength activities. Here are some screen shots of what it looks like – As you can see, I’ve been good and have logged on for 18 consecutive days!

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Resolution #2: Keep my room clean and tidy. I know what you’re thinking…Shouldn’t a 25 year old always keep their room clean and tidy? I’ll go ahead and answer for you….yes. However, being a working girl who likes to socialize from time to time, it’s difficult to always maintain that cleanliness. I’m not saying I’m a slob, but when I’m deciding what to wear, clothes usually end up everywhere (bed, ottoman, floor). By the time I actually figure out the perfect outfit, I don’t have time to make my bed because I’m in too much of a rush out the door. It’s a vicious cycle. But, that was the old me! The new me has been very diligent about keeping things in a neat, organized manner. Don’t you think?

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Resolution #3: Floss my teeth at least once a day, every day (my dentist will love me for this one). I obviously brush my teeth, but I’ve never been big on flossing. I had braces, so trying to get that silly threader underneath my bracket is always a tedious task. It was laziness really. So, I decided this was the year I was going to make a conscious effort to floss once a day, every day. So far I’ve been really good about it. And I’ll have you all know, my dentist applauded me on finally listening to him after all these years! Hopefully I can keep it up.

There you have it. New year. New me. (And new blog theme).

This too, is your year to stick to it. Another chance for us to get it right. What are your resolutions?

10 reasons why I hate winter

Don’t get me wrong, I thoroughly enjoy the holiday season. Christmas is by far one of my favourite holidays. However, all of the hype about the pretty white snow and putting up the Christmas decorations wears off pretty quickly. Because eventually, we’re all just faced with the bitter cold weather and a bunch of muddy slush.

So, here are my top 10 reasons why I hate winter:

1. When girls wear those hideous furry boots. I don’t care how warm and amazing they make your feet feel. You look like you’re trying to marry the abominable snowman….and not even he would approve! There are much better ways to spend $200 – these boots are not one of them!
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2. Having to scrape the ice and snow off of your car windshield every morning. You’re running late for work. You hit snooze on your alarm three times too many this morning and now you’re running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. Trying to find a reasonable outfit for work and scoffing down a piece of toast. You finally finish, put your coat on and rush outside to your car….Only to find 10-15 cm of snow covering your entire car. COOOOL (no pun intended), now you have to run around like a mad women for the next 15 minutes trying to brush off all the snow, scraping off the layer of ice underneath, and heat up your freezing car. Goodbye, coffee stop at Starbucks. Hello, Grinch.

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3. You start looking like one of the Cullen siblings (next level pale). Some of you crazy twihard fans may actually like this one. But for me personally, this is hands down one of the worst things about winter. The sun barely comes out, and it’s dark before 5pm. Everyone instantly looks uglier when they’re pale and it’s not like you can make multiple trips to the tanning bed during the winter months because while everyone’s channeling their inner Cullen, you’ll just look like you belong on MTV’s True Life: I’m addicted to tanning. Not really sure what’s worse..

4. Upkeep gets much more intense. Chapped lips, brittle nails, dry skin, and staticky hair. Every girl feels my pain here. It’s not a good look. Maintaining a soft and subtle glow in the winter season takes some serious work. It can become exhausting.

5. When adults wear those animal HITTS (hat/mittens combined). You’re a 30 year old women…There is no way you should be wearing an animal hat with paw mittens attached. If you are wearing these out in public, there is a 99.9% chance you are a crazy cat lady, and will forever be alone. Get it together people! Donate your HITTS to children, I repeat, CHILDREN who need them!

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6. Immediately sweating the instant you get indoors. I live in Canada, so yes, as most of you can assume, it gets to be extremely cold during the winter. So usually I’ll wear multiple layers to stay warm, along with my down winter coat, a scarf and sometimes a hat. Walking from the car into work, is probably the most freezing trip ever, but why is it that as soon as I enter the front doors, I immediately start sweating profusely? LIKE HI, I was shivering just a few seconds ago, why do I feel like a menopausal women experiencing her first heat flash?! Ugh.

7. Girls who insist on wearing cheap, collapsed UGG boots. Clearly these boots are not offering you the support you need. And you have officially made the transition from fashionable winter glam, to homeless girl looking for money. I don’t understand how these are even comfortable!! All I know, is that it’s time to retire the cheap, leanin’ boot and buy a nicer (maybe pricier?) pair that won’t collapse on you, making you look like frosty the fool.

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8. Having to pay for coat check at the bar. 9 out of 10 times, in the winter, I’ll refuse going to the bar. I mean I already look pale, have scaly skin and it’s freezing outside. On top of all that, I have to pay $10 to check my coat?! UH no thanks. I’ll wait until the summer comes, so I can skip the winter jacket and just wear shorts and a tank. Call me cheap, but I know you’re all thinking it too! That’s a glass of wine I could be enjoying..

9. Wet socks. I don’t even really think this one needs an explanation. I’m sure at some point we have all endured a long day in gross, wet socks. The most uncomfortable feeling EVER. Not about it.

10. Holiday foods, comfy clothes and comfort movies = weight gain! In the winter, we all go into hibernation mode. We lose our motivation to go to the gym. We all start attending holiday functions where lots of yummy and delicious treats are shared and left over. It’s always easier to throw on a pair of lulu’s and a big sweatshirt when you get home. Personally, I like to indulge and watch Home Alone or Love Actually over and over. Then as soon as winter’s over, we go into panic mode…WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO WEAR A BIKINI IN 3 MONTHS?! Winter likes to bitch slap us in the face sometimes.
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I think I need a permanent vacation this winter.

nostalgic for the 90s

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I recently just came across a blog, where the author took a little trip down memory lane and reminisced about some of the things from her childhood that were totally rad. So naturally, as a kid who grew up in the 90s, I felt it was necessary to take a look back at some of my favourite trends that I grew up with! (Obviously I can’t include every single item or we’d be here forever. So I’m just picking a few…Enjoy!)

MUST HAVE Toys & Trinkets of the 90s:

1. Tamagotchi / Nano’s
For those of you who maybe didn’t grow up in the 90s, these tiny handheld devices were digital pets that needed to be taken care of. I’m pretty sure every kid was OBSESSED with these and you most definitely couldn’t go anywhere without bringing your Tamagotchi along… cause I mean after all who’s going to click the three buttons to feed, clean up, and coddle your robot pet?! It ain’t going to feed itself! Totally outrageous.

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OH, BRB…my digital dog just crapped again!

2. Beanie Babies
I was totally, wholeheartedly, one hundred percent committed to this fad when I was a kid. The amount of beanie babies I collected was sickening. But, how could you NOT love these cute little furry animals that had their own birthdays and not to mention the most adorable names. I seriously wish I still had all mine (Thanks Dad, for that time you sold them all at a garage sale. I’m not bitter at all!)

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Remember the plastic boxes you could get to put your beanie baby bears in?! The best!

3. Easy Bake Oven
OH MAN…I’m pretty sure every feminist in the entire world hates the creators of this product because well, it most definitely promotes domestic complacency. But, whatever! These little ovens were SO bomb. I was totally okay with being a Suzy home-maker if it meant I could bake delicious treats for me and the fam.

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My birthday is October 3rd, just sayin’

4. Crazy Bones
Maybe it was just my elementary school that was hardcore into these. But ‘Crazy Bones’ were a must have in the 90s. I don’t understand what the heck their purpose was, but they were these little plastic figurines that every kid would bring out during recess. All of the fighting and trading would happen. Sounds totally lame, but at the time they were cool shit.

ImageMUST SEE TV Shows of the 90s:

1. Uh Oh! (The Game Show)
To be quite honest, I’m surprised I never wrote in to try and be on this show (Filmed in Toronto, wadddup!) I think everyone has a fairly good memory of ‘The Punisher’ who would slime you if you got an answer incorrect. Need I say more?
Image2. Full House
Every young girl loved this show. AND every young girl thought Uncle Jesse was a total babe! (When he sings “Forever” to Rebecca on their wedding day…swoon!). This show is the reason why I want a red front door to my future house!

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Oh hey, John Stamos 😉

3. Breaker High
Thank you YTV for creating a TV show about a high school on a cruise ship (Yep, dreams do come true!!) that starred the young and ever so goofy Ryan Gosling (LIKE I SAID…dreams do come true!). By far one of my favourite TV shows in the 90s. Didn’t miss an episode, and was totally in love with the brooding Max (so dreamy)
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1. Jelly Shoes
Purple. Clear. Pink. Blue. Green. It didn’t matter, I had them all. Thank you goes to the GAP!

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JELLY TIME! I secretly hope jelly shoes come back! lol

2. Butterfly Clips
The more butterfly clips you had in your hair, the cooler you were. The best was when you’d style your hair like Sarah Michelle Gellar (See picture below). Always a solid fashion choice for a girl in the 90s!

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Shout out to the Spice Girls poster in the back! HOLLA

3. Tattoo Chokers
Not too sure why these were a major fashion trend either, but the more of these chokers you had, the more popular you were! Black ones were boring, colourful chokers was where it was at. sUpEr cOoL!*~!*~*~ (see what I did there?)

ImageMUST PLAY of the 90s:

1. Pretty, Pretty Princess
I was OBSESSED! My cousin and I would play this game for hours. Just dressing up as little princess’ and fighting over who would wear what jewelry (Naturally!) Looking back at it now, the game was actually SO lame! haha

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When you’re a little girl, this “jewelry” was like GOLD! As a 24 year old girl, this piece of crap plastic is awful. haha

2. Nintendo – Game Boy
It was pretty damn cool if you could get your hands on a black & white Game Boy. But, if you had the coloured Game Boy….you were just plain badass. By far one of the best game consoles to ever exist (In my opinion). I wish I had it still…I guess for now I’ll just have to resort to getting a cheap “Game Boy” iPhone case 😦

ImageThese are just some of MY personal favourites from the 90s. What do you think though? Did I miss any crucial trends from the 90s? Let me know! Leave a comment.

xo.

 

gossip girl

It’s been quite a while since I’ve explored some juicy celebrity tabloids as of lately. So, because I’m procrastinating hard, I figured it was the perfect time to check out the ever so fabulous PerezHilton.com. For old times’ sake! I totally forgot how ridiculous and hilarious some of the headlines are. Here are a few of my favourites that I’ll share with you beauties..

“Robert Pattinson & Kristen Stewart Visiting Splitsville Because Cheating Scandal Isn’t Behind Them?!”

I’m still baffled that they’re even together after all this time. Wasn’t it just for ratings?! LIKE, HI..the twilight “saga” is long over friends and so are you two. Kristen Stewart is actually the most awkward human being on this planet (And that’s coming from one hell of an awkward individual myself). I bet when he breaks up with her she’ll just stand there with that super uncomfortable blank expression on her face. Grow up.

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“Jennifer Lawrence Can’t Get Enough of Pizza, Buffalo Wings & Potatoes!!”

This is the number one reason why J.Law and I would be best friends in real life…we’re basically the same person! She eats pizza, I eat pizza. She likes wings, I like wings. If people didn’t fall in love with her when she tripped going up the stairs to accept her Oscar award, they HAVE TO love her now! So relatable, am I right girls?!

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“David Beckham is RETIRING From Soccer At The End Of The Season!”

You know what they say right? All good things must come to an end =( This hot dad is officially retiring from soccer (I don’t blame him, if I were that beautiful, I wouldn’t want soccer balls, limbs and cleats flying around my gorgeous face either, hubba hubba!). At least now you’ll have more time to model!

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“Kim Kardashian Talks Maternity Style! Says She’s Not Confident About Her Pregnant Bod!”

Get it together Kimmy! Pregnancy is one of the most beautiful and unbelievable miracles known to man kind! Maybe it’s time you stop wearing clothes that make you look like either a sofa and Shamu the whale. Quit being all self-conscious and embrace it. Usually when people get pregnant, they get fat. But regular pregnant women dress like normal human beings! Check yourself girl.

Mrs. Doubtfire for the win.

Mrs. Doubtfire for the win.

“Rihanna Wakes Up To A New Blonde Weave”

I’m so glad your hair colour matches your dumb idea to get back with Chris Brown (sorry to all my blonde friends). Oh, you woke up with a new weave? That’s not all you’ll be waking up with girl. Bruises on bruises. It makes zero sense to me why she would ever go back with him…but who am I to judge?! It’s not like you’re a role model to young girls or anything…awkwaaaard!

Nope...we all still remember.

Nope…we all still remember.

xo.